Never Know

some guy wanted to sell me water.
that's just dumb.
i just didn't go to work today. i had an office space moment. i just didn't want to go. tomorrow would have been my last day anyway.

"the cruel uneventful state of apathy releases me" - the shins

interesting lyric. sometimes i just don't care about anything. is that bad. i just don't really care. do you ever wonder who's going to be at your funeral? or even worse if anyone will be happy when you die? that would suck.

christians are all looking forward to death. they say it will be the most glorified moment in their lives.

or they could say they are looking forward to Jesus' return.

i don't believe either of them. we are created to not want to leave this earth. the only people that do want to leave this earth are the people that so many Christians believe are going to hell. people that are suicidal. why would God want us to inherently go against what we are so obviously created to feel. does the Bible tell us to look forward to his return? thousands of people are going to die. who am i kidding it will most likely be millions or billions.

i don't get it...

they don't get it...

sigh

this is my blogspot. i was tired of all the people subscribed to my myspace blog just because they wanted to hear something funny, which i'm good at, i think. don't get me wrong i love them i just don't feel like i can write serious stuff there and that's probably a good thing because that's public to anyone that finds my page.

i keep stuff in. things that bother me. i do this because i already know what people are going to say when i tell them what's bothering me. and i'm good at getting through my problems on my own. i started this blog to actually say the things that bother me. this is contrary to everything i normally do. i just feel like whining i guess.

i hate college. alot. i don't want to go back.

maybe i don't want a job that makes alot of money. but what about supporting your family?
maybe i don't want a family. maybe.

who is it that decided that this is the path you have to take to be successful!? what is successful anyways? Why does my family care so much if i make alot of money?

if i could be amusician that plays for thousands of people every week and still live in a trailer i would do it. i would do it much before becoming a businessman millionaire.

it's a curse...should we move?