sigh

this is my blogspot. i was tired of all the people subscribed to my myspace blog just because they wanted to hear something funny, which i'm good at, i think. don't get me wrong i love them i just don't feel like i can write serious stuff there and that's probably a good thing because that's public to anyone that finds my page.

i keep stuff in. things that bother me. i do this because i already know what people are going to say when i tell them what's bothering me. and i'm good at getting through my problems on my own. i started this blog to actually say the things that bother me. this is contrary to everything i normally do. i just feel like whining i guess.

i hate college. alot. i don't want to go back.

maybe i don't want a job that makes alot of money. but what about supporting your family?
maybe i don't want a family. maybe.

who is it that decided that this is the path you have to take to be successful!? what is successful anyways? Why does my family care so much if i make alot of money?

if i could be amusician that plays for thousands of people every week and still live in a trailer i would do it. i would do it much before becoming a businessman millionaire.

it's a curse...should we move?